The Cap Chronicles, Part 13 - 2 Cap Wednesday

I’m already feeling the stress of today. Today is the day my credit card gets charged for the room. Last night, I decided to use my reward points, almost all of them to pay for the next 14 days. I need to save some money and I have a car payment and car insurance coming in fast and hot.

I sweat to god my car insurance has doubled for no reason. I will be reducing my coverage and I hate that. But I will reduce it and look for a more reasonable coverage. I love the company though. Just not right now. And I would love to trade the car in for a cabin w/high speed internet and a fireplace.

I thought I might do 3 caps today but I’m going with 2. I may try and get some light work in and I want to make sure I don’t overdo my microdose. I will not be taking it tomorrow to see if the effect spreads over into another day. For as poor as I am, I’m pondering ways to order more of the stack. I feel like the benefit is worth the money spent.

I wish the first 6 months of this pandemic weren’t spent getting used to this pandemic. I wish all of my family had different options to choose from. I want everyone to stay safe. We are all practicing triage I guess except for one person, who is knowingly running into the fire and working in a public school.

Along with all of the other emotions I’m dealing with right now, I keep experiencing a sense of shame bc I can’t protect them. I can’t afford to pay their way and keep them safe. And I spend far too much time mindlessly surfing the web and arguing over…