The Cap Chronicles, Part 14 - I’m An Awful Trader

I am agitated. I am angry and upset quickly. I am spontaneous in the worst way right now and behaving like an irrational junkie when I traded today…

I am also not taking a cap today. I woke up with a headache, very light one, similar to a hangover. I’m not sure if it was the 2 caps or the weird sleep schedule I did last night. Again I went to bed early, this time knowing I was going to miss my evening gratitude social meetup with friends. I then woke up and barely got some things done after checking to see if anyone was still in the Zoom chat.

“Is this an addictive personality? Is my brain craving the mushroom stack?” I’m not sure. I want the perspective shift. I want the slight changes in my personality away from poor decision making (maybe that’s not so slight) and away from being upset and certain things in life.

But still, a poor trade and a trade in something I knew about but haven’t really studied? Stupid and irrational. Even if I played a put vs a call for the ETF I like to follow that would have been better judgement. This ETF is an “Aquaintance.” Not even a one night stand.

I did not want to become a slave to this trade. I had even written out yesterday how I would procede after a small win. I even had more money in the account when I woke up. And I have proceeded to piss it away. It doesn’t make sense. I did not act calmly, I did not use best judgement. My performance is off today due to poor sleep and probably eating pasta at 2am.